:)

Huyhuy......
It's been a loooong loooong time.
Yes, a lot of things happen, but i'm too scared to write down to you, sorry.
First, im not being friends anymore with him - you khow, him, him? :D
It's all because a girl really mad of me because of him. she told me im so ignorance.

Yeah... mungkin. kadang q tlalu merasa sok. tapi benarnya q cuman mw melindungi diri aja. that's it.
Makanya ku putuskan berhenti bethubungan sms, tlp, bahkan aku blok him dari fb-ku.
Eh malah Gea add aku, tapi aku gk trima. i don't wanna know abaut them anymore.
dia coba temennya yg add aku, tp ttp aq gk trima. It's hurting.

It's all clear now.

Second, I break up with one. 3 days ago. 11 Januari. it's strange, I feel nothing now.
I just don't know what to feel. It's ok, maybe I'll find "The real one" later. one or two month later. I don't know. All I know is I don't stop believin' kata Glee (hehe)
One, sempat kaget waktu aku telephone, dia nyerocos panjang lebar ttng kesibukannya, tapi langsung q cut. aku bilang " kita putus aja yah" dia lalu diam, lalu bilang "km knp lagi?"
Aku cuma bilang gk bisa lagi sama dia, dia blng kamu sdh punya yang lain y? Gak lah, bukan masalah itu.lalu dia bilang " yah, kalau km sdah tidak mau lagi, sy ndak bisa maksa" Yah, bgitulah akhirnya, kita putus. aku deg-degan. langsung lapar. sampai hari ini aku hanya ingin makan dan tidur...... Hehehehe

Third, Im so exiting cos okta bakal join d Gapura as Marketing. Lucu bgt, dia begitu banyak pertanyaan, pokoknya macem2 deh.... aku mpe bingung jawabnya.
Dia masuk mulai awal februari. I can't hardly wait!!!!

That's it
Bye for now...

SAVAGE GARDEN

Yohooooooo........
Q akhir2 ni tergila2 sama Savage Garden. Mengingat kenangan2 lama. Masa lalu yang begitu indah.
Yah keingat sama mama yang protes karena tiap hari gk kenal waktu aku muter Savage Garden. mama paling cerewet kalo aku sdh deket2 Tape.
"Pasti lagu "baby, baby lagi tuh?" Mama selalu ngomong gitu. Yah gitu mama nyebut To The Moon And Back-nya SG.
Aku cuman ketawa aja kalo mama sudah protes.
Hari ini q suka bgt m lagu Universe-SG, jadi q kasi link-nya biar bisa langsung di dengar.
Liriknya asyk bgt. menenangkan hati.
Aku sertakan liriknya yah?

Savage Garden ~ Universe

Well i'd like to take you as I find you
Imagine our chlothes are on the floor
Feel my carres so soft and gentle
So delicate you cry for more

But you know baby
You know baby does it right?
And you know baby does it right

*Universe inside your heart
You gotta let me know so you can be free baby
You want it so much but that is over
You don't know what you want

Put time in a capsule
Two minds consensual
Entwined to perfection
If we could

Cuddle up close
Lay on my chest now
Listen my heart beat's coming down
If you get tired you closed your eyes now
When you wake up I won't be found

Cos I know baby
I know you're the nervous kind
With so much going on your mind

THis time im gonna make you mine
You know baby, you're the one with nervous kind
*
But let me tell you that
This time I'm gonna make you mine
(I won't let you go)
Cos I know this time I'm gonna make sure I look at for me
Cause I know baby,
You know baby does it right?
You will only end up lost in loneliness
And wake up with the words already on you lips
So I'll let you go.....Baby

Nah untuk lebih asyknya, Ni vidklipnya : Savage Garden ~ Universe

Nu Year 2011

Haiiiiiiiiii...................................Happy Nu Year 2011!!!
Telad yah?
Hahahahahaha.... Lebih baik daripada tidak sama sekali kan?
Harusnya dah mulai posting sejak tgl 1 kemaren, tapi karna modemku gk bisa2 konek, & d kantor jg lumayan sibuk, akhirnya baru sempat posting skrg.
Semingguan ini emosi naek turun. Banyak hal terjadi.
I have a little problem with MNO. Im not gonna call him that way anymore. At least now. I don't know. I think Im falling out of love.
New year eve, i send him text, he didn't reply, didn't answer my calls. 'Till 3rd January. I don't know what to say to him. He send me text said he's so sory cos he' got drunk. it's depend on me how to judge him...
I said, I don't even know how to judge.Next hour, He call me, saying things like nothing happend.
I just don't know what to say to him.
I don't know him anymore.
Now, he doesn't even text me. But that's ok. I try not to think about it. I will survive. Like always :)

Next thing, tgl 31 lalu, aku sama bosku ngomongin (curhat2n) masalah kantor, setelah makan bersama karyawan2 di Marem. Masalah karyawan2 dll. Yah, ada positifnya, intinya aku dapat harapan baru biar bisa kerja lebih semangat & ikhlas di kantor. Beliau juga ngerti keadaanku yang kadang2 kurang menyenangkan di kantor. Yah pokoknya dapat kekuatan baru dalam bekerja. Motivasi biar jadi lebih baik. Kita jg ngomongin ketertarikan beliau mengajak Okta gabung di Gapura. Mmg sedikit beresiko, karena dulu okta pernah kecewa dgn beliau karena bu Tia ingin berhenti. Tapi setelah liat Okta masuk melamar, dia gk jadi berhenti... Kita jg ngomongin ttg masa depan perusahaan. Beliau percaya ma aq, mw ngirim Q training ke Jakarta, tapi aq menolak karena aq gk mau ada yg berprasangka buruk sama Q.

Malam tahun baru aku m Okta ngobrol mpe pagi. Lumayan, banyak hal yg di obrolin, aq jadi tau klo ternyata dia khawartir ttng aku. soalnya aq setipe ma dia klo stres. Hehehehe.. Sekarang aku hati2 klo ngomongin kerjaan sama Okta. Takut dia kecewa lagi. Dia masih saja menyebutku bodoh; manusia ter"munafik" di dunia, ddl.
I was. I just don't wanna hurt my own feeling by hurting anyone.
Yah... Sebenarnya Q hanya melindungi diriku sendiri. Bukan bermaksud mengalah. Aq hanya tak ingin orang lain memperlakukanku secara tidak baik, makanya aq mencoba sekuat tenaga menerima, mengalah, & diam demi menyenangkan orang lain.
Kalau masalah "munafik" (dalam Al-Qur'an tuh dosa paling besar!!!) ; misalnya karena aq gk mau bikin orang kecewa dengan pendapatku, aku juga sering mengorbankan perasaanku berkata "Im Okay" but the truth is "I'm not Okay" tersenyum tapi menangis dalam hati. Pokoknya apa yang ada di luar sangat bertolak belakang. Itulah yang bikin Q sangat percaya sama kalimat "Don't Judge A Book By Its Cover"

But tahun ini, Q mau lebih jujur pada diriku and orang lain. Apapun akibatnya.

Okay.... Just see what will happen!


See you when I see you

Riryn__